Down On Ferry Farm

It was a Sunday afternoon; I was cleaning my apartment and had the TV on. There was some show on VH1 which was just background noise to me until the quiet strains of a piano started to play. I watched this young woman go through the paces of her song. She was ‘cupie doll’ cute with a high but strong voice. I appreciated that she played piano versus all the guitar rock that was available at the time. That’s how I was introduced to Tori Amos. The song was “Silent All These Years” from the album “Little Earthquakes”. I read in an interview later that ‘Little Earthquakes’ was the phrase she used to describe her orgasms. It should also be noted that within a year I saw Tori Amos live in concert. It was an interesting affair because she talked about her songs throughout, explained them, and tried to make the audience understand her point of view. They didn’t always understand but they listened politely and appreciated what she was trying to do. When I listened to the album all the way thro

I watch you grow away from me in photographs And memories like spies And salt betrays my eyes again I started losing sleep and gaining weight And wishing I was was ten again So I could be your friend again These days we go to waste like wine That's turned to turpentine It's six AM and I'm all messed up I didn't mean to waste your time So I'll fall back in line But I'm warning you we're growing up I heard you found some pretty words to say You found your little game to play and there's no one allowed in Then just when we believe we could be great Reality it permeates And conquers from within again These days we go to waste like wine That's turned to turpentine It's six AM and I'm all messed up I didn't mean to waste your time So I'll fall back in line But I'm warning you we're growing up We're OK I know we're OK These days we go to waste like wine That's turned to turpentine It's six AM and I'm all messed up

I recently ‘outed’ myself as being a closet musician. I have actually been a musician for a number of years but never really felt comfortable telling people because I’m not a performer. I actually just build original songs by playing them the best I can on a keyboard. I didn’t get the reaction I was looking for. Most people were just surprised to hear that I could play. Other’s had neutral responses like “wow, that’s cool”. No one in my family responded. The people I had hoped would respond – the people I felt knew a little something about music – didn’t respond. I’m not sure at this point who has listened to my stuff. The service I’m using tells me how many people listened to what song, but not unique listens. What I mean is that a song could have 10 listens… but is that all by 1 person, or did 10 people listen to it once? Did 5 people listen to it twice? I’ll never know. I also found it odd the songs that people listened to. The song I WANTED people to hear was not the one that peopl